Complete and Utter
I've had some rough times here and there in the past. But all in all my life is pretty awesome.
I'm in love with a man who loves me more than ten women deserve. I have two incredible children. And on a daily basis, I am able to do exactly what I want with my life.
But last night, when my alarm went off at 3 a.m. so I could check on my son, and I stumbled to his door and just stood there smelling the pee and dreading waking him up to clean up, I just couldn't take it.
I felt utter and complete despair.
I just couldn't even imagine how I could keep this all up.
Then I woke him up, helped him clean up and change his sheets, crawled back to my own bed and overslept this morning.
And life goes on. And despair passes. And I have no choice but to keep this all up.
And my life is still pretty awesome.
I'm in love with a man who loves me more than ten women deserve. I have two incredible children. And on a daily basis, I am able to do exactly what I want with my life.
But last night, when my alarm went off at 3 a.m. so I could check on my son, and I stumbled to his door and just stood there smelling the pee and dreading waking him up to clean up, I just couldn't take it.
I felt utter and complete despair.
I just couldn't even imagine how I could keep this all up.
Then I woke him up, helped him clean up and change his sheets, crawled back to my own bed and overslept this morning.
And life goes on. And despair passes. And I have no choice but to keep this all up.
And my life is still pretty awesome.
Labels: challenges, deployment, family, kids, life at home, military, parenting, waiting, wife
posted by Major Mom at 9:07 AM
Karen is a military wife and stay-at-home mother to a seven-year-old daughter and a five-year-old son. A Boston native who’s lived in the Shreveport-Bossier area for eight years, she spends most of her time volunteering at her kids’ school, supporting her husband, playing with her friends and watching her hair turn gray. In between, she writes about her life here on her blog.
2 Comments:
When I have those moments I remind myself how fortunate I am. I too have an absolutely wonderful husband and four beautiful healthy children. I try to put myself in someone elses shoes. I am currently folowing and praying for two very sick children who have cancer. Reading one of their daily updates really puts me in my place and makes me ever so thankful for the life I live. Hang in there I know times are tough for you right now but they will get better.
Oh, these moments are very few and far between for me. But I've realized that I can't feel guilty about them. I have to let myself really feel it for a moment so I can let it go.
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