Waiting for Free
Okay. Yup. I finally did it.
I finally cried.
In fact, I am crying right now.
I've been waiting for this moment to hit me. This moment of finally being alone and letting go of my tight control and having myself a good cry.
I had gotten to a point where I was almost curious about what would finally tip me over the edge. I expected it to be frustration, or maybe even anger. Or it could have been a song or something on television.
But it was a comment on this very blog. A comment from my husband. Who would have thought?
It might not make sense, but to me this crying and letting go feels really good. At least it happened while I was alone with a pint of ice cream waiting in the freezer.
A feel a little free now. My goodbye cry has finally come and gone. Now I feel like I can finally get on with the business of waiting.
I finally cried.
In fact, I am crying right now.
I've been waiting for this moment to hit me. This moment of finally being alone and letting go of my tight control and having myself a good cry.
I had gotten to a point where I was almost curious about what would finally tip me over the edge. I expected it to be frustration, or maybe even anger. Or it could have been a song or something on television.
But it was a comment on this very blog. A comment from my husband. Who would have thought?
It might not make sense, but to me this crying and letting go feels really good. At least it happened while I was alone with a pint of ice cream waiting in the freezer.
A feel a little free now. My goodbye cry has finally come and gone. Now I feel like I can finally get on with the business of waiting.
Labels: challenges, deployment, family, husband, military, waiting, wife
posted by Major Mom at 11:25 PM
Karen is a military wife and stay-at-home mother to a seven-year-old daughter and a five-year-old son. A Boston native who’s lived in the Shreveport-Bossier area for eight years, she spends most of her time volunteering at her kids’ school, supporting her husband, playing with her friends and watching her hair turn gray. In between, she writes about her life here on her blog.
2 Comments:
I completely understand. Mine usually hits after a week or so! Hope it gets better from here!
Thanks, toni. I thought I was the only one who had The Delay.
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